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i guess i just didn't realize how much it really hurt till i started speaking it out loud then i found out that it feels distant and i know it's probably my fault it's not like i help things but it just hurt all of a sudden made me realize that i don't feel important to people who would want me there for them? will i ever be there for someone? do i matter to people? or am i really and truly cursed to love more than i am loved? maybe i'm selfish. maybe i'm assuming. but it doesn't mean it doesn't hurt. --3.28.21