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they don’t tell you 

that his skin is the softest thing to your fingertips 

and he smells like candy and spice 

and his chest is warm and he doesn’t mind when you drape yourself over him 

just to feel more of him 

they don’t tell you that it’ll be hard to erase 

the way he smells 

from you clothes 

like he’s gone but his essence isn’t 

you keep thinking he’ll come back, knock on the door any second 

because it locks automatically 

and you’ve had to keep letting him in all weekend

they don’t tell you how when he’s with you 

you both avoid the word “leave” 

in any form 

they don’t tell you that when he holds you close and says 

“shh, i’ve got you,” 

it’ll make you cry even more

because he’s got you now but he won’t when he’s hours away 

they don’t tell you that when he’s home and jokes about coming back, just give him a couple hours and he’ll be there, 

it makes you cry more because you know it won’t happen 

they don’t tell you that it’ll be 1 am and you’ll be writing about him because you never stop missing him