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sometimes i get sidetracked on pinterest. 

i look at all these instagram girls--
filtered lives,
long, straight hair,
beautiful nights,
fireflies,
smiles,
shorts,
huge t shirts that somehow look hot,
crop tops, 
perfect bodies,
perfect lives.

i'll get sad.
his face belongs in a picture like that
and i feel like i'll never measure up to the girl he deserves.

weird me. 
with my imperfect hair,
funny tastes,
odd smile,
not perfect.

but sometimes
he grabs my hand
locks our fingers
and looks in my eyes
like they hold secrets he wants to know
and he'll tell me he's the one who doesn't deserve me
and it's crazy 
because i feel so inadequate
but he loves me and to him i am precious
and it blows my mind

--11.18.18