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here i go again.
ripping myself apart for someone
who is so unpredictable.
i throw myself into the fire, giving
all i have
to someone who rarely gives back.
    and when they give back,
  i only receive pain. 

do you care?
only sometimes.

wild. unpredictable.
my skin is burning, i'm up in flames, 
   and you have no idea.

i try my best to help you.
      but you push me away.
  and i end up just hurting you more.

i've tried so very hard to stay angry at you,
  but i care too much.

i'm at the end of my rope.

just pick a side.
i'm sick of hurting us.

--5.22.18