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but what i don't say is that on top of not being able to see him in the evening, this new work schedule means that i have even more trouble and anxiety and stress about balancing my family and him and that now this means more disappointment from me from my family from him because i have to measure out the nights balance them between the two and know all the while that neither will be satisfied and so i will have let everyone down and i can do nothing to fix it --7.25.20