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and here i am

crying 

because it promises to satisfy but it never does

because now tomorrow is day one again

because i wish i could undo so many things like the past hour and that day three years ago 

because i push away the voice that tells me no

because i don’t want to be known as this but somehow it’s the way i see myself 

because now i must admit failure to those who love me 

there is no english word 

to describe the

pain,

sorrow,

regret 

i feel. 

i 

am 

sorry 

—12.1.18